老闆先生

I justed mentioned that I belonged to one group 3 years ago.
But actually, I feel the same feeling now.
To my surprise, they often think about me when they want to do something or they don't do something.
We sometimes have a lunch together. Or borrowing something and chatting by the way.
Or meet on MSN, complain the life together.
Or just asking something, what's happening, they all tell me.
So I feel like even I am not there, but I can join them, too.
And when you know there are someones care about you except your family,
that's sweet and warm.
I really appreciate about that.

Such nice group got their problem, too.
And unfortunately, I stand in the middle again.
But this time is different.
I know what happened,
and I also can understand the feelings of both two sides,
why they did that, why they react like that.
But I can't choose one side to stand either.
Because they're all my friends.
I just feel there are 2 things pulling and dragging to each other.
It would be fine originally.
Both sides want to let things go smoothly.
But sometimes, some factors can't let it go well.
And everyone has their limitations even they try very hard.
And the truth is one side has done something that is big affecting the other side.
I mean both of them.

All I can do just is to comfort them or talk to them when they complaining it, or when they suffering something.
And trying to staying in the rational field.

It's also a life.
You live in the planet, and you have some conflicts with others.
I used to fight for everything wrong.
But after knowing it's helpless, and it's such a unfair, bad planet, I give it up.
Most of times, I consider it is just unlucky for me.
And I'm not going to fight with you, because it's helpless to the matters.
All I want is get everythings done, then I can be free again, walk away from you,
and the most important thing is my life can move on.


Now the friendship part is done.
Next is about my future...
But now it's too late, I am lazy again.